The waiting game

I feel like I'm just in a fog while my friend is in the hospital dying. There is no way for me to go see her don't think I'd be let in her room anyways as she's highly medicated and out of it. I just can't believe this happening the way that it is. Cancer in her bladder stage 4! It was / is in her bones and going into her brain. I don't want her to suffer any longer but I don't want to lose her either. I'm just waiting for her to die and that feels like waiting an entirely.

The End

I have been so sad lately, I have a friend who is fighting for her life right now and all I can do is watch her facebook page to see if shes still with us. I feel like I am waiting for her to die when I know I don't want her to. Then again she's suffering and I don't want that either. What I want is for her to be whole again and come take me out drinking.

A Very Depressing Song :(

This isn't my song but it's how I feel

What's for Dinner? Orange Apricot Chicken

Conclusion

Well I have come to the conclusion that my life can't get any worse! I have people in my house who won't leave and my Dad isn't doing anything about it. He seams worried only about the money and now what they are putting me through. I can barely hang on to my manners and be polite to them. I hope things change soon. Wish me luck everyone.

Family Ties

I was found by my cousin on dad's dad's side. I am happy yet scared, I'm not used to being wanted by family

What a life

Well things have been changing for me and it's for the better. I'm back in school and loving life. Got me some new friends and I love them.