Wreck this journal

Well I got a new journal today and by the title of this blog you already know what journal it is. Yes it's a wreck this journal extended edition. I'm so happy for this for so many reasons. It will give me something to do when I feel I have nothing, I'll be advancing my art skills and thinking. While thinking I'll be creating and thriving to push myself to new levels of creativity. I'll be posting to my tumbler through Instagram if you want to check it out......I will also on ocasion post here.

The waiting game

I feel like I'm just in a fog while my friend is in the hospital dying. There is no way for me to go see her don't think I'd be let in her room anyways as she's highly medicated and out of it. I just can't believe this happening the way that it is. Cancer in her bladder stage 4! It was / is in her bones and going into her brain. I don't want her to suffer any longer but I don't want to lose her either. I'm just waiting for her to die and that feels like waiting an entirely.

The Great Escape

Today I am happy but others are bringing me down with their drama and bitchiness. So I am getting out and going to town today. I will be getting lunch and sitting around at the Red Onion for who knows how long.

Cindy's Heart to Heart

This has been one hard ordeal to go threw and we haven't even hit the big stuff yet. Dad's taking things as well as he can though I think he isn't taking things as serious as he needs to.

Dad's Thoughts on things (+playlist)

My dad's needing help.

Well my dad has been diagnosed with colon cancer. Its freaking hard to deal with. With the help of friends I'm getting threw though. If you can help it would be appreciated.

Medical Help for my Father by Cindy Franco - GoFundMe

Dads fund raiser

Out With Dad, Desiree An Mary (+playlist)

Out with Dad, Mary and Desiree today. It was a great day and we had fun. Seen some interesting people but couldn't film them so oh well it's fine. I didn't want to share my space anyway lol haha. I am tired but it's a great tired. Tomorrow I am taking a break from walking as I have been walking everyday this week in town. I know it's good but it's break time. Well I hope you all have a great day evening or night what ever you may be.

The morning sleep

Well this morning I woke up at 6am with Chad. He gets up early for work. Well I had a decent breakfast of cream of broccoli soup with cheese mixed in. I got full so quick. After eating an spending time with Chad I came back to bed. I was so tired an fell asleep listening to music.

I've been stressed lately but I'll tell you all about that later. For now I'm going to watch some videos then around 11am get ready to go for lunch with my dad again. We are trying to meet my dads friend Mary again as yesterday it was a catastrophe. Watch my vlog on YouTube to hear that story.

Home Coming

Well I haven't been on my blog in a long while. My life just has ben a wherlwind of crap an I forgot all about my blogs. I have been sick with liver problems and have a hernia in my tummy. I am slowly getting better though. 

I have decided on my 35th birthday that I will be going back to school sometime soon. I know it will be hard being out of school for so long but I want to better myself. I plan on only taking a few classes at a time so I am not overwhelmed with so much work. 

Time for change

It's time for the world to change an for things to work out

Well I have been feeling like crap lately, I can't do much of anything and it's killing me on the inside. I want to live a normal life but seams that I will never get the chance. I find no fun in anything and find it hard to even smile at the things that made me once smile like a fool. I don't know what to do anymore.

Lazy Man's Peach Cobbler

DIY LIPSTICK PALETTE - INCLUDING PRESSING!

The hard truth of LIFE

People get sick and have no control over any of it. I have come to accept my issues, but do I have to like them? I am forced to forget about working ever again and to sit back and watch the world go by in it's own way. I will be the one wishing I was able to finish things I started when I was younger but due to personal problems with family I was not able to pursue the things my heart wanted. I am letting my life go from always having money to living on a tight budget and not being able to live out my dreams. I will never travel the world and see the many wonders and sights others are privileged to view every day of their life. I may never have children because I waited to long so I wouldn't be the talk of the town. I have thrown all my dreams away to care for a mother who never wanted a loving daughter. If she ever did the bitterness of her life kept her from ever showing me understanding and trust, till it was to late. I am not left a shell of a person with little to show for from my life. Only thing I have is a little collection of things with no value. I hope my future holds more for my life than my past.

Tired and Sick

I am so tired of being in the middle of things when I haven't gone anyplace or said anything. This crap is all drama and everyone knows it. Over a freaking word game!!! I do think it's funny though I mean really why would I cheat? I double check my words in a dictionary and then make sure of placement. Oh well I have other things to think about like my health!! I am so tired of being sick all of the time. It's like I was born to be sick with strange off the wall things. Ive had lung problems all of my life and lately they have been getting to me. I have had trouble breathing while walking outside so I don't go outside. Not that I can anyway as I can't be in the sun due to skin cancer!!! I am stuck in the house and would love to get out once in a while.

At The Days Pass

Well life as I know it is going to be changing once again!!! I am looking forward to it then again I am not wanting things to change. I know this not liking change is my anxiety getting the best of me, then again sometimes I think I am just crazy in the head. I knot know what to think now at days. The people you once thought of as family stab you in the back and the people you thought would stab you in the back first are the ones who are helping you threw all the drama. Guess things change little by little that we don't even notice it anymore.

To Little To Late

Now I think this is hella funny that since I have been helping my cousin deal with a family matter in facebook that other people are feeling guilty. I have been posting things like, "100% TRUE believer in KARMA!! You can hide, you can pretend, but KARMA will find you!!" There are people who are thinking it is about them! Seriously if you haven't dune anything to me why are you feeling guilty? I think it is so funny that they think my life revolves around them when they are just proving their life revolves around me if they are that worried about what I put on facebook. I am not going to stop posting what I want when I want just because they are insecure about themselves. I mean hey if you think what I am posting is about you maybe it should be since you feel that way.

What Is Dune Is Dune

I sure wish that people would learn that once they have crossed me that I am dune with it all. I am tired of being used by my friends. I haven't even talked to some of my own family because they have used me or talked shit about me. Once my own mother was talking bad about me which started my own aunt to talk about me. All because of this I don't have many family members who talk to me. They all think that I am a user and that I dune nothing but used my parents. I don't use friends or family!!!! I so wish that people would stop talking about me. There are just some things that I won't do or put up with.

You people who are doing this to me..YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!! Stop it already! I don't talk to anyone that you know and I don't talk about you. I have my own life of which don't revolve around you or what you do. I would rather spend time with my friends and my loved ones than spread lies about you. I don't like lies said about me so why am I going to lie about you. Get it threw your head You are a teenager and I am an adult. Until you grow up and live a little don't be saying shit. You have yet to learn about what life is about.

Well things are about the same as last time I was able to do an entry. I am down some friends though and not by my doing. Someone thought they would be cute and blame me for things I possibly couldn't have dune. I was able to prove my innocence but I only did to show the dumb people who believed the lies that they were wrong and made to look stupid. I am fine with things though I am able to move on with my life with out them in it. I don't need the drama anyway. I have yet to get an apology so no worries here I know right from wrong and i sure hope they learn it themselves as well.

To the guilty party I wish you luck with your life and that someone in a position to punish you for your lies figures out what you are doing. You are out of my life but I am not out of yours I am a relative and that isn't changing anytime soon no matter what you want. I am not leaving just to make you happy. I am a real person with real feelings who loves. Just know that at some point you will need my help and I may not be there to help you as you have used me in the past. Learn to treat others how you wish to be treated.

Dumb People and what they do

Well looks like someone finely got my point that I don't want them around HAHA!! They have called my hubby a few times and he's told them to just stop calling at all and to leave me alone. Well today that bitches new boyfriend called and was telling me threw a voice mail to stop sending his gf messages. Well I haven't!! She is totally blocked from anything that is mine.