Home Free

Well it looks like things are going great for once in my life. I have my Hubby my Dad and no drama what so ever. Someone tried to start some but my family is so tight and can talk about things it didn't work.

Ya some bitch tried to say my hubby's ex flashed him at their daughters 15th birthday party. Funny thing is that I was there and nothing happened at all. There was to many people there for that to even happen if I wasn't there. I think it's funny this person thinks they can start shit. Just because I threw you out don't mean things you say are going to bother me. Remember the truth always comes out and you will be the one to look dumb not me. Besides you hang around people that are no my friends and know nothing about me. Nothing you say is going to change how my real friends think about me.

Anyway I have my photo studio just about set up. I am so excited and happy I finely have things how they should have been years ago. I have a room for my work and hobbies, one that I can sit in and be relaxed calm and alone.

Trash Seams To Roam

Well I have been great the past week, spending time with friends and family. Just relaxing feeling like I am a normal person and not the freak that has thoughts run threw her head faster then she can comprehend. With out extra people here I have been able to relax and think about things in a calm controllable way, well for me that is. I still have to take my meds that seam to help me at times. (I will explain the meds latter on, maybe tomorrow.) Just the past few days it seams that the people we have asked to stay away from my house and my family is still trying to come around. It is making me go nuts thinking that my dad is lying to me again about the same bitch. I so hope not, I told him today that if he so much as talks to her I am dune and I mean that. I am hopping that he isn't that stupid to throw me away just like that. I do have my doughts though as he has been lying to me all this time about her. I really do hope that he is being honest finely. I don't want to lose my family I am finely getting happy and that is something that I know that I can't handle right now. Not at this time in my life when I know that my youth is just about gone and my chances of having kids is getting lower and lower. I hope that my parent's didn't steal away the life that I have always wanted.

Life In The Normal

Well it looks as if things are getting back to how they used to be. I am happy but I am also worried that it's only because I called out the bitch and not because my father is putting all that behind us. It seams as if this isn't all over yet, that he is only acting like this is over and he is still going to be talking to her. It's hard to trust him at times like these when he's showed that he had little to no respect to tell me the truth in the first place. I have a lot of tough times ahead because of his lying to me, I can't trust him. I want to but it's hard and he's proven to lie to me about more than one thing. What should I do?

Back To Normal Again!

Well now that, that liar is out of my life it's time to move on and be a happy family again. It's been one full day and already I am able to sleep better. Yesterday I was able to go to the park and have some real fun. There are even plans to go to the park again next Saturday! I am so excited and ready for fun and friends and family!! It's finely time to have a good life and leave all the drama behind...well my life has always been full of drams so I am already wondering what is next.

Having to Prove Myself Right!

Well turns out that I was 100% right about that girl! She was using my family and my father!! She was using us for money food and a place to sleep. After catching my dad lying to me about going places with her and spending money on her I just couldn't handle it anymore. I had to do something about it to show how I was right and didn't need to have my family mad at me for something that I wasn't doing. I was told that I was acting stupid and like a fool trying to tell them that she was nothing but a user. Well the other day she told me she was going with her brother in LA to stay with him for 2 weeks. Then she turned abound and asked my hubby where Bell Gardens is, which is where my friend lives!! We all knew that her brother lives in Visalia and doesn't have his own place. My friend contacted me asking me about her and wanted to know why I kicked out my own sister??? I was like what the hell!! She asked him to stay with him for just two weeks and was using me as an excuse. I had tried to tell my father before that she was lying that her brother didn't live in LA but he was believing her. He was saying that he knows it's her brother and that she isn't lying. He didn't get it, I had no reason to lie about this, I have no reason to lie at all. When I was able to show him the truth that she was lying that was it!! I showed him all the prof I had and then he started to question her and she was lying to his face even after all had come out. She turned around saying that her brother lied to her and she didn't know why he would do anything like that to her.

I hated that I had to take things that far but what else was I left to do. My own family was believing all the lies and was lying to me about things. I had no choice and to get my dad to believe I had to call her out right in front of him. Give him a chance to question her before she came up with more lies to tell him. She even tried to get my friend on the phone to tell my dad that I was the one lying. She left yesterday!

Oh No You Didn't Go Bump In The Night

Well I didn't sleep much at all last night while my dad had that bitch in his room all night long. Not only that she was on the phone way after midnight after she knows not to be on it at all unless it's to be asking her family for a place to live. The only reason she is still here is because it's illegal to beat her with a fence post and I am not that person who throws women on the streets. I am upset that I am being pegged as the bad one here when I was the one lied to here. Last night when I went into my dads room I seen her sitting right in the middle of my fathers bed leaning on him. It was sick and I wanted to throw up at the sight. I know my dad is lonely but fuck seriously this girl sleeps with anything that walks. She's even tried to shag my man from me a few times.

Lies Breaks Family Trust

When a little white lie seams so simple to avoid conflict you need to ask yourself why there would be conflict in the first place. In this situation it was a woman showing her friend that she can be trusted to not take from her family. Well a lie was made a little white lie they thought and not it's the one lie that is tearing the family apart. I don't know who I can trust in my own family and yes sadly this includes my own father as he was a part of the lie, he says it was his idea. They said it was to avoid hurting me in the first place, well I am not stupid and I found out. Now they are trying to say that I am the one in the wrong!! That I am taking things to far!! I was lied to I didn't lie to them. I want to tell her to leave and to not look back at my family to just leave. I am so upset that I can't even feel my own feelings or think my own thoughts.