Trash Seams To Roam

Well I have been great the past week, spending time with friends and family. Just relaxing feeling like I am a normal person and not the freak that has thoughts run threw her head faster then she can comprehend. With out extra people here I have been able to relax and think about things in a calm controllable way, well for me that is. I still have to take my meds that seam to help me at times. (I will explain the meds latter on, maybe tomorrow.) Just the past few days it seams that the people we have asked to stay away from my house and my family is still trying to come around. It is making me go nuts thinking that my dad is lying to me again about the same bitch. I so hope not, I told him today that if he so much as talks to her I am dune and I mean that. I am hopping that he isn't that stupid to throw me away just like that. I do have my doughts though as he has been lying to me all this time about her. I really do hope that he is being honest finely. I don't want to lose my family I am finely getting happy and that is something that I know that I can't handle right now. Not at this time in my life when I know that my youth is just about gone and my chances of having kids is getting lower and lower. I hope that my parent's didn't steal away the life that I have always wanted.