Throw it out or up

Things are ok, and thats being nice. His kid is back and raising his voice to him! I had to speak up, this kid has very little manners. And refuses to eat normal food! His parents don't care and it's shows. I don't know what kind of man he hopes to be when  he grows up....probably a wife beater because that's what his mother goes for.

Boring at best

So things haven't been as exciting as they should be lately. Just been laying around the house....room....doing next to nothing. Wanting so bad to make a video but have nothing to edit it on and my phone just don't seam like an option. All I can say is come on tax season!

New starts for health

Going to be having my MRI soon and I'm so ready to get it over with. I'm hopping that this test shows how my spine is getting worse. If I can prove that then maybe my disability will go through.

Laugh it up with friends

01022018

Well I spent my day hanging out with good friends. We all kicked back in my room and he and she kept teasing each other. She's pinch him then he'd try and grab her boob. It was funny for a while. We asked dirty questions from the Internet and they gave answers. I just laughed and tried to keep from getting more involved than I already was.

Well today was good just wish my he would give me more attention that's not just sexual but sensual. I get he's a man and doesn't know his own strength but I wish he'd be way more gentle with me when he touches me. Or maybe he'll learn as time goes on.

My first day as a new me

Well its time for a change and it's coming from the inside. I'm doing me and trying to tune out all the negative people around my life.

01012018
Good day today, hung out with good people and watched video game play.

Well I think I'm on the road to healing on the inside. I don't like someone but I'm going to be forced to live with this person. I'm going to try to deal with it and accept the situation maybe even be nice to them. But no promises on that last part. Well I'm not mean to them I just stay away and limit the time around this person. It's them that don't like me because their afraid that I don't like them...and there lies the problem. They are putting words in my mouth and assuming things that wouldn't be true if they just let me be. But I promise to try and make the situation batter, not foe them but for me.

Oh as far as the hick drama queens they are out of my life and I refuse to let them around me. But my partner thinks that I'm going a bit far on one of them. Not my problem just because your relation to that person don't mean that I have to open my heart to being hurt again. They aren't aloud anyplace around me and all because of them running their mouth and telling lies about me. Oh well their loss because I'm an amazing person.