Update

Well looks like my friend mentioned in past blogs is for sure going to die. I know it's been longer than I thought but she is now in end of life care. Her daughter has already seen her for the last time, which is so sad. The infection she had in her bladder just couldn't be killed with antibiotics. The medication was only making her worse.  

Heart to heart

What my heart looks like
I live for rock music

Renew

I got good news on my friend, she's alive and doing much better than what she was. She says she was over medicated and was basically in a med induced coma. She has been on and off Facebook so I'm glad she's better. I mean she's still got stage 4 cancer but she's fighting for her life.

The waiting game

I feel like I'm just in a fog while my friend is in the hospital dying. There is no way for me to go see her don't think I'd be let in her room anyways as she's highly medicated and out of it. I just can't believe this happening the way that it is. Cancer in her bladder stage 4! It was / is in her bones and going into her brain. I don't want her to suffer any longer but I don't want to lose her either. I'm just waiting for her to die and that feels like waiting an entirely.

The End

I have been so sad lately, I have a friend who is fighting for her life right now and all I can do is watch her facebook page to see if shes still with us. I feel like I am waiting for her to die when I know I don't want her to. Then again she's suffering and I don't want that either. What I want is for her to be whole again and come take me out drinking.

A Very Depressing Song :(

This isn't my song but it's how I feel

What's for Dinner? Orange Apricot Chicken