Laugh it up with friends

01022018

Well I spent my day hanging out with good friends. We all kicked back in my room and he and she kept teasing each other. She's pinch him then he'd try and grab her boob. It was funny for a while. We asked dirty questions from the Internet and they gave answers. I just laughed and tried to keep from getting more involved than I already was.

Well today was good just wish my he would give me more attention that's not just sexual but sensual. I get he's a man and doesn't know his own strength but I wish he'd be way more gentle with me when he touches me. Or maybe he'll learn as time goes on.

My first day as a new me

Well its time for a change and it's coming from the inside. I'm doing me and trying to tune out all the negative people around my life.

01012018
Good day today, hung out with good people and watched video game play.

Well I think I'm on the road to healing on the inside. I don't like someone but I'm going to be forced to live with this person. I'm going to try to deal with it and accept the situation maybe even be nice to them. But no promises on that last part. Well I'm not mean to them I just stay away and limit the time around this person. It's them that don't like me because their afraid that I don't like them...and there lies the problem. They are putting words in my mouth and assuming things that wouldn't be true if they just let me be. But I promise to try and make the situation batter, not foe them but for me.

Oh as far as the hick drama queens they are out of my life and I refuse to let them around me. But my partner thinks that I'm going a bit far on one of them. Not my problem just because your relation to that person don't mean that I have to open my heart to being hurt again. They aren't aloud anyplace around me and all because of them running their mouth and telling lies about me. Oh well their loss because I'm an amazing person.

New Year New Challenges

Well its going to be another year, more changes and challenges. Im goung to push for surgery to fix this stomach problem, and hernia. I'm going to thrive to do better for myself and no one else. I want to be a better person and be more helpful to others.

I'm also hoping that other people around me change for the better.

Wow, it's been a while

Sorry everyone, life got fast and things happened. I didn't forget about you I just didn't come on and let you know what's going on. First of all I'm good, seeing a new dr and hope to have surgery soon to fix the hernia. I'm also losing weight and working on myself. Been keeping busy and trying to stay ahead of the game. I'll write more when I can. I'm just not able so sleep tonight because I had a cup of coffee yesterday afternoon.  Talk soon.

Rabbit dog

Well the bitch is gone for now, she fell and broke her ankle or some shit like that. I normally don't dislike a person this much but she's a pushy witch who was trying to take over the whole house. Telling my hubby's son to leave the front room because she though he would be a distraction. Not her place. I hope she don't come back but I know I won't be that lucky. I don't know how I'm going to handle her being here again but I do know I'm talking to her about how she was when she was here.

Update after seeing my Dr

Asmr official video

https://youtu.be/QLKWoDIKBxA