Well I have been feeling like crap lately, I can't do much of anything and it's killing me on the inside. I want to live a normal life but seams that I will never get the chance. I find no fun in anything and find it hard to even smile at the things that made me once smile like a fool. I don't know what to do anymore.

Lazy Man's Peach Cobbler

DIY LIPSTICK PALETTE - INCLUDING PRESSING!

The hard truth of LIFE

People get sick and have no control over any of it. I have come to accept my issues, but do I have to like them? I am forced to forget about working ever again and to sit back and watch the world go by in it's own way. I will be the one wishing I was able to finish things I started when I was younger but due to personal problems with family I was not able to pursue the things my heart wanted. I am letting my life go from always having money to living on a tight budget and not being able to live out my dreams. I will never travel the world and see the many wonders and sights others are privileged to view every day of their life. I may never have children because I waited to long so I wouldn't be the talk of the town. I have thrown all my dreams away to care for a mother who never wanted a loving daughter. If she ever did the bitterness of her life kept her from ever showing me understanding and trust, till it was to late. I am not left a shell of a person with little to show for from my life. Only thing I have is a little collection of things with no value. I hope my future holds more for my life than my past.

Tired and Sick

I am so tired of being in the middle of things when I haven't gone anyplace or said anything. This crap is all drama and everyone knows it. Over a freaking word game!!! I do think it's funny though I mean really why would I cheat? I double check my words in a dictionary and then make sure of placement. Oh well I have other things to think about like my health!! I am so tired of being sick all of the time. It's like I was born to be sick with strange off the wall things. Ive had lung problems all of my life and lately they have been getting to me. I have had trouble breathing while walking outside so I don't go outside. Not that I can anyway as I can't be in the sun due to skin cancer!!! I am stuck in the house and would love to get out once in a while.

At The Days Pass

Well life as I know it is going to be changing once again!!! I am looking forward to it then again I am not wanting things to change. I know this not liking change is my anxiety getting the best of me, then again sometimes I think I am just crazy in the head. I knot know what to think now at days. The people you once thought of as family stab you in the back and the people you thought would stab you in the back first are the ones who are helping you threw all the drama. Guess things change little by little that we don't even notice it anymore.

To Little To Late

Now I think this is hella funny that since I have been helping my cousin deal with a family matter in facebook that other people are feeling guilty. I have been posting things like, "100% TRUE believer in KARMA!! You can hide, you can pretend, but KARMA will find you!!" There are people who are thinking it is about them! Seriously if you haven't dune anything to me why are you feeling guilty? I think it is so funny that they think my life revolves around them when they are just proving their life revolves around me if they are that worried about what I put on facebook. I am not going to stop posting what I want when I want just because they are insecure about themselves. I mean hey if you think what I am posting is about you maybe it should be since you feel that way.