Back again lol

 WOW yeah it's been a long while. Things aren't going to good here. first dad isn't at his best which I knew was gonna happen sooner or later. He keeps on falling and needs a lot of help from the fire department picking him up. APS was called on him, and I have no idea what is going on with that. I was not talked to and have no idea why. I just pray that they don't come back. Dad needs to get paid help here for him to help with things like cleaning the bathroom after him, cooking for him and adjusting his eating habits. He also needs help showering...when we get a water heater that is. 

As for me I am surviving as best I can. On what I get monthly it's hard. I have to prioritize what is important and what isn't. I know that's being an adult and I just gotta do what I got to do. My health is decent except for this hernia. The drs wanna do weight loss surgery before they fix it. They say so much can happen to me if they do it now. I am here like how can this get worse...wait don't ask that with the luck I have. Living at home hasn't been easy with everything going on. 

Tidings of comfort and joy

Christmas was good! I got so much.

1. HOMEMADE BLANKET FROM CHAD

2. HOMEMADE PILLOW TO GO WITH BLANKET.

3. A MAKEUP MIRROR WITH LIGHT FROM THE Campiotti family 

4. HARRY POTTER PENS FROM Karen 

4. HARRY POTTER DATE BOOK FROM KAREN

5. JACK SKELLINGTON BLANKET FROM KAREN 

6. A CAT PILLOW FROM KAREN 

7. STOCKING WITH CANDY AND HARRY POTTER TINS WITH JELLY BEANS FROM KAREN

I think that's about it. Thank you for everything. I truly appreciate it. 

Thanksgiving

 Well thanksgiving came and went like the weekend comes and goes. it was nice to be around people and just relax. I hope that this year is a good one for Christmas. 

Coming home!

 Well I'm back in California, and now live with my father while Chad is with his son. We're still together but it's like dating again. 

 Well guess waiting for surgery is a forever thing. I found out that I didn't have enough information for the insurance to agree to pay for the surgery. It's ok I don't think I really wanted it to begin with. If I go and need one later on then I will get it. 

Anyway this Covid thing well it's changed the world in so many ways. I haven't been able to go anyplace or travel much.  Yeah I go to walmart but that's nothing. I got my vaccine shot so I should be ok. I know I can still get it but it won't be as bad as it could be. Well one can hope. 

covid-19

Well thanks to the virus I didnt have my surgery. Guess we are waiting for everything to clear up as much as possible. I'm sure the hospital I'm going to have surgery at it busy with covid-19 patents, as it's in Tacoma just below Seattle. In a way I'm glad but then again I didn't want to wait this long. I just hope I won't have to go through more tests! 

Hysterectomy 3

Well I finally set up my surgery for March 31st.  I'm excited but worried all at the same time. I just want to get it over with. I'm more worried about the healing process. 

Hysterectomy 2

I am hopping to get this hysterectomy over with and go on with my life. I am now more scared of after surgery then the surgery itself. I really have no place that is comfortable for me to sit for hours on end. I am hopping that by March I will have a new mattress that is easier for me to get in and out of bed. The one that I have now I sink into and have to use muscle to move around. After surgery I am afraid that I will have issues with my abdominal muscles. I hope that after a few days that will go away and I can at least move a little bit. I have been watching other people tell their stories and they say that the first three days are the worse. I hope to get through them and come out better than before.

Hysterectomy

Yes, the title says it all! I'm getting one really soon and I'm scared. I know I'll be ok as long as theres no complications. The dr is really good at what he does and I trust him. I'm just freaked out about after my surgery. You know how I'll feel and if I'll hurt a lot. 

Looking forward to Friends

I'm really looking forward to some friends moving up to Washington. I know we've had our problems in the past but that was because of other people getting in the way, now that those people will be gone, it can only get better. We have been talking through text and on social media and getting along really well. I pray that things stay good and nothing gets in the way of friendship. 

I really can't wait to have a friend to talk to and hang out with. I haven't really met anyone here in Washington yet. I talk to one I met once on facebook but shes always busy working and with her kids. The way my life is I need a close friend that has just as much time as I do....basicly another stay at home wifey. (I'd work if I could but my back issues) 

So heres to looking forward to having company. 

I can't believe it

Things are really good! My friends still want me back in California but I'm now living in Washington. It's even mindblowing for me to say I no longer live in California. I thought I'd live there forever. Dont get me wrong I'm happy I'm no longer there in poverty. I'm happy where I'm at though I still feel like a guest. I so cant wait to get my own place. 

This is a good move right?

Well I have friends saying that I need to get back to California and getting upset that I can't even visit till 2020. I don't know what to tell them other that that I don't have the money. I also don't think it's a good idea that I go back to soon. There are things I want to leave behind in California and I don't want to go back into that. I also can't stand my fathers girlfriend, she is the main reason that we had to leave. But how do I deal with my friends who want me back? Do I try and video chat with them more often when it's already hard to even find the time? I just don't know what to do. I am happy where I am at, and yes I do miss my friends. I will visit them when I can.

Relaxing finally

I've finally had the time to relax and get back to myself. I had been stressing about my health and my medication.  I'm finally even with everything I'm back on my meds and feeling wonderful! This move to Washington has been really good for me. 

New life in a new home

I can finally say that I don't live in my patents house anymore! I am happy for that but sad that my father is left alone with a tyrant.

For the past year I had been living in a home with my fathers bitch of a girlfriend. I call her that because she is just that. I mean how can that not be fitting for someone who told me that I am nothing that I do nothing and I will always be nothing. Also that my house isn't my house that I  don't do anything to clean or pay bills, that it's not my mothers house and never was, that it is and always has been my fathers and now hers. Well joke is on her, she can have the house and all the mess that my patents made together. She can be the cleanup person.

I don't know what more to say just that since leaving I am happy and healthy. I no longer live with a dread that I have to stay in my room all the time to avoid her and her attitude. I am serious, everyday it was a fight. I had issues going to the bathroom that was across the hall from my room...and it was a small two foot hall. I can finally breathe fresh air and know that my life will be getting better from here on out.

A funny

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New State New Life

Im so very happy to be out of California. That place where I was, was killing me. I love Washington and all it has to offer. I'm just praying my man finds work soon!

Visiting Forks Washington

I'm super excited that next year I'll be visiting Forks Washington for the 2nd time in my life. This time I'm not going to want to leave. 

Secrets

Life Can Be Frustrating

Big changes coming in a few months. 

Money Sucks

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